Not ready for the goodbye

Today I’ve been knocked off because of the nostalgia, you came up into my mind I can barely remember your face, your brown wrinkled face but still remember those amazing and sad moments we had, it’s been now 2 years and I am not stronger enough yet to face you’re gone and never come back I still cry like the first day you left us, and it’s so hard for me not to have you here with me.

I can see in my memories the first time I went abroad, and you came to tell me godbey with mom, I will never forget the tear drop which felt from you, now thousans and milion drops are falling ‘cuz you left a big empty hole in me, I need to travel in the past just to give you the goodbye hug it would have felt better insted of the sad dead you’ve got. I won’t never forgive me for not spending more hours with you and being nicer, after all I was also scared of the cancer you were going through, although the time we spent by was fair good.

I just wanted to tell you   I will never ever forget you, cuz you’ll always be a part of me, the principal pillar to get where I am. You’ve raised up everything for insted of thinking for you, you’d never put yourself first and sadly that’s what borught you the illness. If you are living another life, please share every single thing you feel at least you won’t feel like carrying a big rock with you.

Miss you so much, your daughter